I have procrastinated blogging about this because the quote sums up my beloved Grandma Gene. She was one of the most important people in my world. My heart now has a missing piece until I see her again some day.
The moment I found out my grandma moved on to the next life I panicked. I didn't know what to think or what to do. My grandma was the one to cheer me on with everything I did. Even if I was a complete mess or stressed out Grandma always told me how wonderful I was or that I was important in her life. For a few years now she has been ready to go because she has missed her mama and all her siblings who passed on. Then in June she lost her twin sister and I think that did it for her. She was so lonely for the ones who she grew up with and whom she missed terribly. Even though I struggled with her telling me that she wanted to go, I knew that she loved me. She told me (and my sisters) 'know that wherever I am that I love you.' I hang on to that so much. I believe that she loves me and that she is able to watch over me.
I would like to say though, that I am thankful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Days. I wish I could yell the message to the world and have people understand that this gospel is true. I have felt the love of it in my life so many times. It may sound weird, but many times since I have lost my grandma I would sob and sob but then the next second I would feel peace and as if I could feel her around me holding me up. One of her many motto's was 'Keep your chin up.' I felt her tell me that. I know she is nearby because of the binding that we have of being an eternal family. I am sooo grateful to know that we are bound as a family. When my grandparents were sealed in the temple it wasn't "till death do us part" and the same thing for my parents and then for David and I. With that being said, the ending is never. We are bound and sealed together forever as a family. I couldn't imagine not having all of my family with me forever. For that I am extremely thankful for temples and their importance. I could go on for hours about the gospel, but I won't. Today, the aspect of the gospel that I love is families and the phrase that "Families can be together forever."
I am thankful for the testimony that my Grandma has in the gospel and I'm sure she is on the other side working to spread the message of Jesus Christ to those who need and want it there. Although I can't see my grandma now, I can live her legacy and share what I know of the gospel with those that I love.
I am grateful for all the many millions of memories I have with her. I sure miss my nightly conversations with her and her singing lullaby's to me, but one day I KNOW I will get to see her again. I couldn't be more excited for that day when I am surrounded by all those that I love and we will live as an eternal family.
Ava and Grandma Gene On Christmas Day 2010
Grandma and I at her 80th Birthday party
My grandparents with Zoe on her blessing Day
